Life

Much happened since the last 3 months, and I should have kept up with posting updates, but I was lazy. I'm sorry. I'm going to mention one marvelous testimony for now. On October 13, I went to see a doctor for the results of a test a week prior. Since a few months before then, I felt shortness of breath and chest discomfort, and that's why I went to the doc in the first place. So, on the 13th, doc said I had class 1 heart failure, outputting 35% of blood. I was put on meds, and began praying for healing. I prayed with my wife, I prayed with the prayer team at church, and believed I would be healed, though often the devil lied to me with doubt that it would not happen. This past Friday, Nov 6th, however, I went in for an angiograph, to see if the coronary arteries were part of the issue. After the test, the doctor stated that the heart was beating just fine, without problems! God's timing is perfect!

"Develop a heart and mind for God."

I was at a dear friends funeral today. A 24 year young David died last Thursday. As I remember him, I know that God has taught thousands of people through David. Some lessons I learned from him are: He had some physical limitations / "disabilities", but he did not pay attention to them, nor did he let them stop him from what he wanted to do. He took part in a vast number of activities, like Spartan Christian Fellowship, Crave Youth Group, Asian Club, among others. He worshiped the Lord with his whole heart, without caring about how he sounded or looked. He smiled, and his eyes opened wide, when he saw those whom he knew; and he hugged them strong. I could see that he loved them. I want to take these lessons to heart. On a similar note, when we came back from the funeral, I realized that our dog Nuka was always happy and joyous when she saw us after a few hours of being away from home, or in the mornings. I want to be like this with those I love.

I was reading Romans 3:10 - 18 and was thinking that I can relate to many of those things, written about Jews or Gentiles under the power of sin. Particularly, I was thinking that I don't really seek God, fully and wholeheartedly. Then I thought what would it look like if I did? I think that if I fully sought after God, I would reflect the life of Jesus. He prayed early in the mornings. He sowed and reaped awesome fruit of His labor. He stood up against the unrighteous. He spoke and stood for the Truth. He obeyed the Father's will. I still don't see myself doing much of this. Do you see yourself reflecting the life of Jesus yet?

I just watched a documentary film titled "Second Skin". It was about addicted video gamers, playing for 11 hours or more a day. Some of these gamers met another in a game, of the opposite sex most definately, and formed a relationship in real life. Some played so much that they became depressed and wanted to take their life. Some played because of a disability in real life, and the virtual worlds gave them more freedom. Some played and ruined their relationships, jobs, family life. A point was said toward the end of the film. If people are turning to these virtual worlds by the millions, what does that say about the real world? I think this is a sad fact.

How do you humble yourself? Get a revelation and figure out who God is. Worship Him. Like in Revelation 4.

You're cheating on God. If all you want is your own way, flirting with the world every chance you get, you end up enemies of God and His way. And do you suppose God doesn't care? The proverb has it that "He's a fiercely jealous lover. " Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. This is not an equal ratio, that is you take one step, God will not take one step. When you take one step, He will run toward you!